This blog is so late, coz it was suppose to be writing it before Mother's Day.
As that sunday approached, i have remembered those beautiful ladies of my life. Ladies, if i don't mention you here, please dont feel offended =P These are some ladies that impacted my life in some special ways, and i believe there are many more that i will not be able to mentioned here..

Mainly that day, mummy was not around here. I don't know why, i really missed her that day, and all i could do was to ask dad to bring mummy and granny for a great dinner, all cost on me and sis. My dad some more jokingly said he would 'slaughter' us! Felt bad about it when i heard people are celebrating mothers day.

Mummy is the first person to be the most beautiful woman of my life. One colleague told me about how mothers nowadays being a full-time housewife are not being easy at all. They're not as free as we thought they could be. Coz the whole day has been spent to drive their kids back and forth for school, send for tuition. Not like our time in those days, taking buses, or public buses were so easy, on my own. Walk alone or walk with friends, cramp in those small buses, in the hot afternoon or sunset evening. For security reason, mothers these days feel worried for their children in schools. My mum may not send me to school, but this was something she did:

Whenever i stay at school in the afternoon for extra classes(primary), she would hand over my lunch box to bus driver uncle and i would collect from him after school. The feeling of opening up the container with my mum's cooking, was really something great! And now...

And how she would scold me for not finishing my water. How she will not allow me into the kitchen to mess up her preparation of meals.. How she have to work in the factory at one point of time, to support my dad's income while her hands actually couldn't take it because of eczema. How she beared all those bitterness that she had for all those early years when she thought of leaving the marriage 28 years ago... for me and sis.

The next i thought of Pn. Nita Patel, my highschool teacher and met her when i was Form 6. Pn. Nita, she was still the same after giving birth to 5 children! Energetic, young at heart, bold and outspoken yet gentle. God works in her beauifully and tremendously. She is one woman that inspires me in her faith for the Lord. Her experience of marriage and motherhood and her calling of raising godly generation impact me very much.

Ps. Tryphena, Ps. Martha Hor, Sylvia, a bunch of ladies in PLUC :) God showed me the ministry, through the years Ps. Try journeyed with me with some of my hurts. Thank you PLUC. With you around, we could tell many more to re-claim their real identity of womanhood and manhood. You holds on that change is possible, and God our creator is the one that we can only look up to, can only turn to him for all our brokenness and be made whole. Ladies, may your good works be blessed upon you and others.

The next would be, Yien Fang, Tracy and Sen Nee. We fought through together in F6, you all reached out for me when i was a lost sheep at that time. Pn. Nita said you all go all out for me.. :) And today, you 3 newly wed ladies, still very concern about how i'm doing all the time. we have called each other leng luis, sa po and all..lol yes we are. no words can really describe how the journey that i went through with you all in those days..and i really hope we are still keeping the friendship strong even as you move to the next stage of your life. And i'm grateful and thankful for having you in the crucial times of my life :)

And the next... Working colleagues. Ladies of SSDs & IEC!! a happening bunch of people. Bee Fong, the one that shown her hospitality when i was a newbie 3 yrs ago. My heart for you is that you reallycome to know about the one and only truth and happiness in life is to have Jesus. I felt bad with myself for not telling you after all those years here.

Jean, a lady that inspires me with her heart for missions and lost souls, and of coz also being my very initial tennis kaki.

Helen, always with LOTS of stories to share. To testify on the goodness of the Lord, provide wise insights and direction

Ee Sarn, your boldness & straighforwardness (though quiet at times), strong determination is something i admire of :)

Ju, Sue, Elisa, Joey - been like a big sister to me too. I learnt from you all. :)

Ms. Lee, thanks for being an encourager to me at work :)

Jenny, sincerely treating me like a daughter, God let us meet for a reason :)

How to mentioned all..

Think about it...I'm sure there are many more!

Yesterday i attended a memorial service of an old granny. She was my church elder's granny, age 89.
Last year she was really sick, and doctor had advised the family to be ready of her passing away anytime soon.
But God prolonged her life and she stepped into 2010 and last saturday, she was called to be with the Lord.

Madame Lim was her name. i heard how the family sang songs of hymn, praying for her. And there was a particular hymn that she loved very much, and she felt happy when the young people sang it to her. The prolonged of her life last year, was very much a testimony to her family and relatives who have yet to believe, seeing how God works in her.

As her grandson share on his granny, i felt together with him. As i have left only one granny, staying far in Selama Perak. My grandma used to be a person that i stayed with whenever there were primary school holidays. She slept beside me, talked to me, joking and we laughed on the bed.. And she would stroked her own grey hair, pulling and stroking and it seems to be her habit for many years. And in the early mornings about 4, she would wake up and washed her kitchen utensils because over the night (kampung chinese house), may have lizards running over..or she was just plainly couldn't sleep anymore that's why she woke up.

Grandma was a simple lady, good temper, her health may not be that positive as the years go by. Only thing i'm getting concern, her salvation..she was very into superstitions and Taoist rituals.

In the memorial service, after David's(Mdm Lim's grandson) sharing, i looked at my sister. Sis eyes went red (and that got my tears coming up even more easily), then i looked at her and said:"this CNY, we better talk to ah Ma about Jesus." My sis said:"Eh, we're so overboard. We hardly call ah Ma on the phone. we should!" My sis was right...

The pastor who shared yesterday said things that got me reflect again, how much more time do i have.. there's one question i have been wanting to ask my dad and mom: " If i would ever go first before you, will you please believe in Jesus so you could be with me forever in heaven?"

Year by year, life's getting difficult, but we still pull it through,
Trials after trials, we still pull it through,
Death after death, man fear of, people still need to die in the end.
So what matters most?
An eternal farewell, or an eternal reunion?

This memorial service, was one that I've seen with many cheerful faces because we knew where she have gone to. It was a solemn moment when we sang the hymns and listen to pastor's sharing. But after that, it was a cheerful gathering of friends that we have long not seen around.